Sunday, June 22, 2008

My girls...

2 of my girls did a little mini-session with me on friday evening.... later on i took Mylo to Brandi's for another photo shoot . Thanks again Brandi!!





friday

after fort edmonton park, the kids played in the yard in the sprinkler. it was beautiful outside! emerson was there too, but she seems to not enjoy getting wet just yet. she's not used to it, so she stays far from the water LOL!





Friday, June 20, 2008

3 weeks....

in Mylo's first 3 weeks she has been:

-Kai's playschool year end party (36 hours old)
-shopping all day with mom (3 days old)
-Red Deer to meet her great grandma (4 days old)
-Kai's soccer game (5 days old)
-Herber's Autobody & Enterprise Rental Car, Hallie's t-ball game (5 days old)
-different playgrounds & soccer & t-ball games (6 days old, 7 days old, 8 days old)
-Family BBQ & Dance @ Hallie's school (8 days old)
-Neighbor's house for a visit (8 days old)
-doctor's office (10 days old)
-Red Deer for funeral (13 days old)
-playground again , doctor's office again, hallie's t-ball game(14 days old)
-kai's soccer game (15 days old)
-Hallie's track meet (16 days old)
-Hallie's kindergarten graduation party (17 days old)
-Out for brunch, shopping at the mall, & visiting to grandma & grandpa's house (18 days old)
-Waterpark at the mall (19 days old)
-Kinsmen playground (21 days old)
-lunch & shopping at the mall, hallie's t-ball game (22 days old)
-fort Ed park & brandi's house for photos (23 days old)

Hmmm maybe we should slow down.....

the Fort

sorry in advance that some pics are so dark! we went this morning for just under an hour... a short trip there but we'll go back again soon.









Thursday, June 19, 2008

Father's Day! (better late than never!)

Taken on Father's Day... Daddy with 3 out of 4 kids (Mylo slept through my photo session LOL)



and Grandpa with 3 out of 4 kids... (Mylo still sleeping...)





photo post

Miss Mylo at kinsmen park on wednesday. Her first real time outdoors outside of her carseat and blankets. It was SO nice outside!






emerson playing on our deck
mylo sleeping at the t-ball game tonight
hallie in our yard
kids playing in our yard


thanks

thank you for all of the comments and email about my parenting issues! i realized after that i was going about things completely wrong! really, what does it matter if she is up late and checking in on us every 1 minute? no really, i should just not let it bother me. so tonight, i tried this approach. no getting mad, no closing her door to keep her in her room, no crying from either hallie or me, and we hooked up the baby monitor as a couple of you suggested. (for her to hear us) it worked well, although it's now 10:30pm and i believe she just now fell asleep. i'm EXHAUSTED after being out most of the day, so i'm heading to bed after this. that means i got no ME time tonight. but i have faith that it WILL get better. let's hope!!

so as for my goals, i didn't do very well today with the staying home one. this morning we went to old navy to get the kids "canada day" shirts. i'm not normally one to buy into the holiday themed clothing, due to minimal opportunity to wear the clothes, however hallie was mentioning how they are supposed to wear red and white on the last day of school and i knew this was important and special to her, so i got each kid (minus mylo) a shirt.

on our way home, we stopped at the playground and spent an hour there until hallie's bus came. we then got ready to meet my mom at the mall for lunch. yes, i took my 4 kids + my 2 extras to the mall to eat. KRAZY!!! it actually went quite well, i was proud of the kids to behaving well there. i even managed to duck into gap kids to peek around, and of course piacked up a couple new things for the kids. (i still get my discount for working there, even though i'm on leave, which is AWESOME - however my paychecks were what allowed me to actually shop... so i'm planning to go back this fall/winter sometime.)

finally got home around 3:30pm, and would have loved to sit down, but this is "clean up the house" time. kipp gets home at 4:20pm and likes to come home to a clean house. so i did the dishes, tidying, etc. while the kids played in the yard. hallie had stayed at the mall with my mom and went to my mom's for supper.

anyway after cleaning up, i made supper and we then rushed out the door to pick up hallie and then off to t-ball. i had all of the kids because kipp had promised my mom that he would cut her grass. (my dad is away this week for work) so t-ball was fun, it was hallie's last game. they had team photos. it made for an extra long evening, done at 8:30pm. yikes! home and into bed by 9pm for the kids, which is WAY late. oops!

so yes, i'm pooped. no energy left here. i'm going to aim for a less busy day tomorrow. so far we have morning plans, but nothing else. i hope to keep it that way !!!

i'll leave you with some photos :) (including some of ME!)


hallie at t-ball tonight
emerson and mylo at t-ball tonight, it was a beautiful night at least!
kai at t-ball tonight. man he needs haircut !!
kai took this pic of us
hallie took this pic of us








Wednesday, June 18, 2008

some new goals:

my current goals:

-less daytime computer time (save it for evening instead)

-more QUALITY time with the kids. i am with them all day, but sometimes not "with" them but just in the same room as them, if that makes sense. i'd like to interact more, be a better mom.

-stay home more. we are on the go too often, rushing from place to place, using up expensive gas, spending money on fast food, activities, etc. let's stay home more.

-take more photos of what we're up to, rather than just capturing a cute face. and some photos with ME in them, even though i'm not loving how i look - i think it's important to have some with me in them too. there are barely any. if i'm even anywhere with you, take me camera from me and insist on taking a picture OF me. thanks :)

-not let little "friend" dramas bother me. there seems to be a lot of drama lately, i think most of it is in MY head, however i'd like to just push it all aside and not worry or care about it.

that's all for now, i really need some sleep here! this whole newborn / lack of sleep thing can't be helping all of my recent issues i am sure. ugh!! good night!

*pics tomorrow i promise, i took some today at the park and had lindsay take some of ME with mylo too :)

short but sweet.... ok long and not so sweet....


i need to be fast tonight as i'm battling a headache that has been with me since early this afternoon.


so i've hit a parenting "road block" for the first time in what feels like a long time. i guess i should be happy i've made it this far without many bumps. anyway here's the situation:


some pretty major things have been happening in our house, the 2 main big events are the birth of our 4th child, Mylo, and the death of my grandma shortly after. her death came somewhat unexpected, but she was at peace with it. it was her "time to go," she said, in her last hours.
these events have had an impact on our family, but mainly on my 6 year old, Hallie. she is the most aware of these things. she knew her great grandma and thought highly of her. she is also such a sensative little girl that anything like this bothers her a lot. (i still remember when i took her to see charlotte's web in the theater, and how she first learned about death, and how she cried for a long time after that and any time she thought of it.)
after these 2 events, another "traumatic" event happened. i won't go into details but it was something 100% our fault and she has lost trust in us, for now. (us = me and my husband) it was a scary situation and basically we screwed up. she felt alone. it really upset me when it happened and still upsets me to think about. anyway this was likely the most major thing lately.
so since these events, we have a changed little girl... and a somewhat changed little boy. (he is now 4.5 yrs old) since these events, she no longer can let me out of her sight. she normally is in bed at 7pm, sleeping shortly after. well now she is in bed at 7pm and awake until 9pm, 10pm, 11pm. she comes out of bed to the upstairs railing to "listen" for us, to make sure we are there. she cannot seem to just fall asleep anymore, she is worried, anxious. she keeps her brother up with talking to him, i think to reassure herself that he is there, we are here, etc.
she doesn't want me out of her sight when she's playing outside. won't let me close any doors, including the van doors when she is in and i am not yet in. she is just really scared, anxious.... and i know it's my fault, but not sure what to do about it. there's only so much reassuring i can do and then i start to get frustrated with her "compulsive" behavior. i know it doesn't sound like a big deal, but i know my girl and this is not who she normally is. i know something is really bothering her but not sure what to do.
anyway i don't know if i'm asking for advice, or just reassurance that this will get better with time, or what, but i might just be losing my mind here! my husband tonight said that we should just ignore her when she's out of her bed, just let her come to check on us, and eventually she'll just trust that we're here and she'll be ok. if that means her not sleeping until after 11pm, then so be it. thoughts??
i wish i had more answers. times like this i wish we were more religious and i could go into a big talk about god, etc. but yeah, i can't. i have no clue what i'd be saying.
thanks for reading.

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

This blog is back in business!

So after taking a 6 month break from blogging, I'm back! I really do miss blogging our daily adventures.... sharing the photos.... and reading your comments. I miss reading everyone else's blogs as well. I recently stumbled upon a random blog purely by chance - i was searching "kids' chore charts" and ran into a post this mom had written... then started reading her more recent posts, photos, etc. and it reminded me of my blog when it was active. i need to do this again!

looking at my last few posts, they're mostly words and not many photos. that's not my style. i prefer words AND photos... blogger is a bit annoying because photos (esp. the large ones my camera spits out) take forever to upload. but, my promise to you is to document our days with photos. this means dragging my point and shoot around more with us as my big camera is just so big, it doesn't make it everywhere we go. just too much to carry!!


i'm also updating my "readers" list to remove anyone who no longer is interested in reading, and to add new readers. if you would like to stay on the list, please comment here!

i'll leave you with some photos.... there's a black & white of hallie but i can't get it to work. and i'm tired so i'll try her's again tomorrow. 'nite!









Saturday, January 26, 2008

confession!

ok i have a confession and i want to know what it means..... i have not eaten any meat except for chicken & turkey for the past 11 years. no seafood, no pork, beef, nothing. in the last month, i have eaten 5 DQ cheeseburgers.

i'm not sure what's going on here, but i can't seem to get enough! i'm craving one right now! only DQ so far, i think because they're sort of "burnt" so it's not so "meaty" tasting...

so.... boy.... or girl..... ?????? or does this weird meat thing not mean anything about gender? LOL!

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

Exciting news!

Exciting news! Check out my new website: http://www.freshbytasha.com/ and of course, my photography blog still exists too: http://lyonslens.blogspot.com

Thank you all for your support thus far!!

Sunday, December 30, 2007

hello!

wow i haven't posted since dec 7th! yikes!

i guess it's been a busy month.... most new pics are up on facebook... not sure if i have anything different to share since most of you are on my facebook i think?

we go this week for emerson's appointment about her tube hole leaking. jan 3. then the next day i go for an ultrasound to see my new little baby!! i'll be 18 weeks, 2 days.... it's a 3D one. not sure yet if we'll find out the gender of baby. i'm going to leave it up to baby to decide if he/she wants to show us. i think it's a GIRL though. just my prediction ;)

i have 5 months left of being pregnant! it's already going fast!

yesterday we took the kids sledding... was fun! they stayed out for a couple of hours i think, i was SO cold by the end but they were fine. likely because they were going up and down the hill and i did a few runs, but watched for the most part.

today we're taking them bowling! woo hoo! i love bowling! it was actually kipp's idea, he loves bowling too. maybe we should join a couples league. LOL! ha ha!!! we're taking emmy to grandma and gradmpa's house while we bowl, she would be all over the place if she came.

so we've had kipp home with us all week. we've kept busy and it's been fun! tomorrow is new year's eve... wow that seems weird?! i think we're going to go over to our neighbor's house for some snacks, drinks, games, etc. otherwise stay home if we're tired. i didn't want to do much, i'm not a big new year's krazy person though!

what are your new year's plans?

i've enjoyed my week off from dayhome kids. it has been really nice. makes me sort of wish i just had my own kiddos here. however, life requires dayhome kids for now, so i'll deal with it! wednesday i get my little leah back, and the boys don't come back until school is back in, jan 7.

ok, off to bowl now!

Friday, December 07, 2007

doctor appointment today

i'll sum it up in point form because i'm hungry and need to go snack!

-emerson needs the tubes in her ears (already knew that) and hopefully it won't take forever for an appointment....
-the g-tube surgeon should be calling next week, hopefully we'll get her tube closed up asap
-the purple/blue in emerson's hands, feet, lips sounds like she has something called "Raynaud's Phenomenon" http://healthlink.mcw.edu/article/926055412.html for some info on it...
-and as for her "tracheal tug", the doctor said he has seen it before in kids who have the same kind of lung damage history as emerson does. he said she will most likely always have this but may look less noticable as she gets bigger. he said it could have been an undiagnosed case of "Tracheomalacia" http://www.nlm.nih.gov/medlineplus/ency/article/001084.htm however emmy had 2 or 3 bronchoscopies done when she was a baby, specifically looking for this, and they said it wasn't that. who knows. the doctor also mentioned that she may have before needed a trach or in the future, i didn't quite hear... (maybe tried NOT to hear, i can't stand the tought of that!) he also prescribed a different inhaler for her to try for a month. he wasn't overly worried about it though :)

ok that was longer than planned and i'm not off to get a snack, shower, and sleep. :)

Thursday, December 06, 2007

oops!!

i just looked back through the blog, and realized i haven't posted our NEWS?!!!! (at least i couldn't find it if i did?!)

we're expecting baby #4, due june 4th!! sooooooooo excited!! i had an ultrasound for dates on nov 15th, got to see the baby in there.... you'd think it gets less exciting but it doesn't! i have another ultrasound coming up in january i believe (if i ever get around to booking it, oops!) and i had my first "real" prenatal appointment this past week. i heard baby's heartbeat, which also does not get any less exciting each time!

i can't believe we'll have another newborn in the house. i'm also a bit sad that this for sure is my last time being pregnant, and last time giving birth, and last time having my own newborn. i just hope my sister hurries up and has a few for me to snuggle later on :) (and some of my dear friends.... lindsey!!! kara!!! leanne!!!)

so there you have it. i'm 14 weeks along now... no sickness, a bit tired, bad complexion, gained too much weight already i assume, but otherwise things going well :)

finally, an update from me!

soooooooooo emerson had a hearing test on nov 30. it STILL shows fluid in both ears, packed in there, and flat eardrums... and this one showed moderate hearing loss, both ears. the other 2 hearing tests said her hearing was within "normal range" so i think this fluid needs to go ASAP! this likely means tubes, but i won't know more until our appointment with her ENT on Jan 18th. seems like everything takes so long!

we also still haven't heard anything regarding her g-tube hole that needs stitching up. i want that done soon, it's getting gross and staining her clothes :(
we have an appointment with her pediatrician tomorrow morning, so i'm going to bring up EVERYTHING, including the purple hands, feet, etc. with my luck, they won't be purple tomorrow though! LOL!

hmmm what else is new? oh! i have come to a decision re: kai and gymnastics. i'm NOT going to put him in the competative, but we can revisit the idea next fall. i had decided that 2 hours, 2x/week was ok... but then i started thinking about may, june, july, onward and my kids (and i) LOVE spending time at the playgrounds, going for walks, etc. and i hate having a scheduled "thing" in the summer. so, i thought there's no point in him joining right now, we can see what next fall brings us. by then he may start hockey and the gymnastics might get put on the back burner.

i've signed both hallie and kai up for gymnastics again in january though, this time they'll take a class together for 1.5 hrs each week. they LOVE going every week!! i love watching it too.... not like dancing where you're not allowed to watch, or like other sports that can get.... *yawn*... i won't say it...

emerson got her first "real" haircut at a salon this week! i'm not sure i love the results, as it looks like a straight across line now at the back, but it needed a trim and it still looks cute. i'll add some pics! (taken with my old sony point and shoot cam, it fits in my diaper bag better!)
this week was supposed to be our "not busy" week, but it's turned into a busy one! we had something going on each day.... i got almost NO laundry done and it REALLY needs to be done. (see pic)

i'm looking forward to the weekend. only 1 photo session booked, and hallie has a bday party to attend -- i'll get some stocking stuffer shopping done while she's at the party :) (hey, kipp doesn't need to know it's a "drop off" party! ;)

i had a late dinner last night with friend sara! i always love our dinners and chats, she is a great friend... i wish we could get together more often! too bad the girls are in different kindergarten times this year. we should really plan something one weekend so the kids can get together too! (although i secretly like our kid-free time a LOT hehe)

ok, i should run.... i have a pile of rubbermaid bins i need to sort through still tonight... and of course watch part 2 of grey's anatomy, continued from last week. looks very good!
wait, one more thing -- i just got a notice in the mail that the muttart is CLOSING for renos starting jan 2 until oct 8th. ACK! this was my new favorite photo place that i was planning to use until the spring. well THAT REALLY SUCKS!!! but i'm sure it will be even more beautiful, maybe bigger, etc. when it's done.... in time for next winter's pictures!

take care! sorry the updates are few and far between. i am finding myself a bit tired these days, and trying to get to bed an hour or so earlier than before. daytime is busy with the kiddos, their school, their activities, their friends, the dayhome, etc.... and when i AM on here, i'm usually editing pictures. so there!


blogger never uploads in the order i want. ok so here is emerson's "AFTER" pic of her haircut. blurry and can't see it well, but that's the best i got!
once again, not the order i wanted... but has anyone seen my baby girl??? or just my HUGE laundry pile?! normally i love doing laundry, but this week i am on strike i think!
emerson in the hair salon... looking a bit worried. she had no clue what was going on!
awwwww.....
she remained very serious throughout the whole thing! ha!



Friday, November 23, 2007

purple

the past few days my emerson has been purple.... she gets purple lips, hands and feet.... the hands & feet are very cold to the touch, but it's weird... this just happens while she's dressed, house is warm, she's running around playing, etc.... i didn't really think much of it (she has always done this just not daily) until this week when i had a friend over who noticed it too. so i'm not just krazy i guess.... here's a pic, below...



another update!

so emerson finally recovered from the eye gunk and her chest sounds better.... after a huge pharmacy bill (we just lost our blue cross because kipp changed jobs grrrr) and 6 prescriptions for her?!!!! wow... poor girlie. anyway she seems to be on the mend.

another issue, her g-tube hole is leaking.... moreso when she is sick but still, the other day it was leaking her dinner/dessert and that just cannot be ok!!! i called her doctor, he said it's ok to leak, but not ok for her since her tube has been out for 6 months and it's still leaking. so.... some kids need surgery to close it, she must be one of them! (surprise, surprise... . she doesn't like to do anything normal LOL) so her ped has sent on the referral for the surgery... it's just a quick thing but still, one more thing....

next week emerson has another hearing test.... i don't know if it's so much for hearing or to check the fluid in her ears. if it's still there after 3 hearing tests, they may put tubes in.

good news though - emmy is talking a bit more these days and actually able to communicate better with me. makes life a lot less frustrating for both of us!

ok gotta run.... kids are all doing ok today, however this past week was a week of stomach flu.... right up until last night. ew!!!! i had to run to shopper's for gravol for them, and pedialite... $50 later?!!! sheesh these kids are expensive.... why didn't anyone warn me?? haha!!

hmmm.....

so..... this is long but please read and share your thoughts...

i took the kids today to a "pre-competative talent assessment" at their gym club, so i could see which level they should be in, as registration is coming up. i was hoping hallie would be able to move up to pre-competative.... however they just suggested she go to the next "rec" level which is 1.5hrs/week, just one day. same as she is currently in.

now my son, on the other hand, shocked me. he is currently in a rec program 1 level below hallie, for 1 hour per week. he did the assessment today and i was told they want him to join their competative team, not even pre-comp, but competative?!!! wowza!! he only JUST turned 4yrs and he would be the youngest one by far, but i guess they were very impressed with him. he is a strong boy, well coordinated, etc. (started riding his 2-wheeler bike this summer at age 3.5yrs, scales our fridge at home, does the full set of monkey bars at the park at 3.5yrs, can do flips on the tramp, etc.)

so they handed me the package and the time commitment and cost is just a lot more than i expected! it's approx. 3x MORE money than his current rec program, and that's based on 6 hours per week. he would go 2 days per week, 3 hours each day 4:30-7:30pm. he normally goes to bed at 7pm but he would be ok later, just tired unless he napped that afternoon, which he somtimes does. the "team" he would be with would be there 3 days per week, but since he's only 4 they suggested 2 days.

i am thinking maybe 2 or 3 days, but only 2 hours per day IF he goes. 3 hours is just so long for a 4 yr old. unless he's having a blast.... so i just don't know....what are your thoughts? get in while he can, even though he is young? or just sign up for rec again, and revisit this competative idea when he's older?? i was thrilled when they said my son had talent, but after looking at the manual they gave me to read, it just seems like a lot of time for him at such a young age, and time commitment for me too, not to mention money....aaaahhhhhhhh !!!! thoughts?!?!? **want to add that it's not a major time commitment for me since i can drop him off/pick him up, i'm not required to stay there although i would to begin with...

my mom thinks it's insane that i'm even considering it. i think i'll go one day without kids and watch the team he'd be with, see the coach, see what they do for 3 hours, etc. and go from there.... i just don't know?!!

Sunday, November 11, 2007

sick again

my house is sick again... 2nd time having colds this fall. emerson's is quite bad, and today she also somehow got pink eye in both eyes. kai is complaining too, i think he's getting it as well... fun fun!

i've been busy with christmas photo sessions all weekend! i have loved doing them though! so fun and so great working from home! the sessions are quick and the editing afterwards is minimal since it's only 1-3 pics for everyone to choose from!

the template is giving me a headache but i hope to have that sorted out asap!
otherwise not much is new here... just sick and working and... that's all for now!